Last week I attended the #SEPC2019 conference in Savannah GA. (shout out to Jamie Lee for taking time to photograph me!)
In the middle of 2018, I began to feel static creatively and uninspired business wise. My questions were: 1. What do I need to do to grow? 2. Am I even supposed to be a photographer? 3. How can I secure my future and really make a living doing what I love? 4. Do I have to focus on weddings or can I also be a food photographer, real estate photographer, family portrait photographer and just an ALL THE THINGS photographer?
I definitely found some answers but of course I am an over analyzer so I'll never stop questioning!
1. I need to keep working and if I am not inspired by what I am photographing I need to set up a styled shoot. I also need to get feedback from my peers and that is why I am so incredibly grateful to have Stephanie in my life. (indigo photog). Not only is she my mentor but she is always keen to provide me with quality feedback.
2. YES. I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE A PHOTOGRAPHER. And on top of that, I AM AN ARTIST and I need to view myself as such.
3. I need to market myself and my craft more. I think I've always known this, but attending the SEPC was a nice kick in the keister. Special thanks to Kelly Raye, Bud Johnson, Christina Devictor, Erik Clausen, Adonye Jaja and the other speakers for the inspiration and the encouragement to grow.
4. I still don't know the answer to this. My instagram is mainly weddings. My schedule is absolutely jam packed with real estate, head shots, family, boudoir and of course FOOD. To all my other photographers out there: Do you really have to focus on one element/subject of photography in order to be successful?
After leaving... I discovered a NEW question about myself and my photography career. There was a running theme in everyone's discussions about being yourself and staying true to who you are. I find this challenging. One, because I will never share the dark side or the stress and tears that are behind the scenes in my crazy life. As a business owner, I am on the side of hiding all things personal. Two, because I am the epitome of duality. I am an absolute lover of life. I tell jokes, I love to laugh and I love games. I am also very dark. I am incredibly political and socially cynical. Balancing the two has often placed me between a rock and I hard place. As much as I'd love to go on an existential rant right about now, I shall spare you. However, WHO TF AM I?
I have the beginnings of an answer.
I am Stefanie Haviv. I am a blend of confidence, self analysis, ambition, lethargy, ecstasy, melancholy, open mindedness and skepticism. I am your multi-faceted ball of juxtapositions just trying to find her way in this world. Just like all of you, I am human and I am looking for balance.
In conclusion, I am more determined than ever to work at my craft, search deeper within for my “why” and overall POST MORE IMAGES ON SOCIAL MEDIA.
Special thanks to: